god/mom i sure "wish" i could spend the "holidays" with you, i miss you so very much and love you, and cant believe you/i at times/seasons, now look ?? cant "fix-it" no more in this life/world, if if if i only knew ?? what i know now,, but i cant fix it,, i am so "sorry" may "god"/"jesus" let you be with me, when you can, i "need"/"want" u 2 be (: (: forgive me, i am truly sorry, but you were a "butt" too, at times/seasons, but i know we loved each other and shared a ton of great-memories and made things the best we could at the time, i wish there were "more" i do know what it feels like to be "lonely" and alot of things you were right, you were always right, just like brigham young in the mountain of the lord movie, he was always right, he was always right,, thanks for all the efforts/love/caring and everything you gave it to make my holidays nice i didnt tell ya enough, but am now, i miss you/love you, i am jealous and hurt over babrbara/theresa and jen/linda they r so lucky they still have their mom, i wasnt suppose too no-more and it hurts like hel- your daughter cindykay/rosebud to my mom mother sharonkay/rose of sharon in jesus' name a-m-e-n........